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Today I really did not feel well. So I did not go to work. I feel like crap. But. It did give me a whole day to just think. And think, I did.

About health. About this body that we have and how we need to take care of it. So I've made decisions about supplements and vitamins to increase my energy and my vitality. I don't want to be this low energy anymore. I refuse to suffer from headaches every day, taking pain killers every day until my body builds immunity to every pain killer in existence. You can't just not take pain killers, then you're incapacitated completely. you have to get to the root of the problem and deal. y'know what i'm sayin?

i thought about my roommate too. When we first moved in together I was high energy and really contributing, but lately I've been almost lethargic. She's not complaining but she's pulling her weight and some of mine too. better than not complaining about me, she constantly exhibits her care for me by trying to help. so I got to get better.

i thought about work. I miss the retail lifestyle. not sitting in front of a computer all day and attached to a phone having machines suck the life out of me. i need to find some retail management training program and get back to the kind of job I really liked.

most of all, i thought about God and His Word. And about all the above in light of the word. What is true worship? How do we truly worship? To worship in spirit and in truth, or to truly worship by spirit, does this not mean that the holy spirit is our access to truly worship? And then, is worship not everything? Our thoughts; our words; our actions; our emotions; our choices. The way we love people around us? The way we decide, one thought at a time, to be better? The way we speak the truth in love to one another? yes. what about the food we eat? the way we scrub the toilet? the television shows we choose to watch? the way we treat the girl at the coffee shop when she takes too long making our cappucino?

You're thinking "Wow, it is so great that she didn't just waste her day watching soaps..." Ha. Shows what you know. Days of Our Lives and As the World Turns kicked ass today!