a life of abundance

We all want a life of abundance. We want to have everything we need in every segment of our life... we want to have shelter, food, clothing, intellectual stimulation, social acceptance, spiritual understanding. we want to have attainable goals and a direction in life. a modicum of stability to carry us through difficult times. we want to be able to stand strong in the face of adversity. to rid our lives of negativity as much as is humanly possible, so we learn to control what we think about, how we behave in relation to circumstances around us (not just REacting but choosing our response wisely so as to keep the peace.) so that our thoughts feed that abundance. and you slowly learn that you don't really know that much, that pet peeves aren't really about the people and things that bother you, they're about you and how you view yourself. how you view yourself in relation to your surroundings and people. and how YOU view the people and things around you. So if you're not 'centred' then your view will be askew and your ability to empathize and be compassionate is compromised. and your abundance at heart is compromised too, because the most important thing is to have joy at heart and mind, to "think happy thoughts" or atleast thoughts that inspire and help you build towards your goals and that better you you're always becoming. we put off the old when we put on the new. we leave the malice and anger, the childish things behind us. we leave old hurts and our old mistakes and our old thoughts and our broken dreams in yesterday where they belong, we dwell in today where our new dreams lie before us and can still come true. because dreaming is one thing we do not do enough of. today is beautiful. all the things we want to accomplish, they are wonderful and worthy. and a life of abundance is possible.

happy birthday...

to 2 people I can't even reach except by this right now!

happy birthday jacqueline, hope it's a good one. we haven't talked much lately, and I definitely miss you.

happy birthday mommy, in the dominican with no cell phone service. call me? and same as with jac i definitely miss you!

bye!

don't be angry...

Why is it so hard for you to realize that you choose to be angry? that it's your choice whether you yell at people around you, spewing your vitriolic acidity... burning through the love and joy you could be sharing? when will you start choosing to elongate the space between stimulus and response... and choose to change your automatic reactions to compassion and empathy? and also that you have no right to shout, to yell, to swear and accuse, to recite tirades... that if you continue to choose anger and pain in your heart, that's not about me and I won't let it be my problem. You deserve better. I wish you would see that. That as long as you continue to allow yourself to be cruel to those who love you, you put walls up. You imprison the friendships, you prevent them from ever being able to develop and grow. You imprison yourself when people stop letting you into their lives and they stop being able to support you.